My name is Dr. Jeffrey Fox, and I am a tenured Professor of Mathematics at CU Boulder. Like millions of people, I have suffered from depression and PTSD most of my life. I have sampled the smorgasbord of medications, often going back for seconds. I have been treated by therapists all over the United States, and each one has provided me with useful tools and insights to help manage my depression. PTSD has a been harder – the only techniques I’ve learned so far were 1) avoid the triggers and 2) hope for the best. These techniques were all I had until now, and they have not been very successful.
Then last year I discovered Ketamine Infusion Therapy, and it has been a game changer.
Dr Wade Grindle and Sarah Grindle are the founders of Boulder Mind Care, the first Ketamine Infusion Therapy clinic in Boulder. They have literally given me my life back. The Grindles are truly exceptional, caring, kind, and compassionate people. From the first moment I spoke with Sarah, I felt a renewed hope, because she really listened to my story. It was the first time in a LONG time that I felt like someone (other than my exceptional therapist) cared enough to truly listen to me.
I have had rare periods of remission from depression. More often, I’ve only been able to get to what I call “good enough”. “Good enough” is where I survive my day, doing what I have to do, and at the end of the day breathing a sigh of relief that I got through it, knowing tomorrow will be the same. “Good enough” is the state that many people like me strive for; “good enough” is what we settle for. The fantasy of sustained remission long ago fled my mind.
The trouble with “good enough” is, it’s not. Not only is “good enough” not good enough, in actuality, it is horrible. “Good enough” steals one’s life, one’s very humanity. The very things that make us human are just stamped down, if not completely erased. In the “good enough” state I become more like a robot than a human being.
Last year, I started to hear about ketamine, and how it was being used successfully to treat depression, PTSD, and chronic pain. One of the practical barriers I had in doing ketamine therapy was accessibility. I cannot drive after an infusion, so I had to have some way of getting from one of the Denver clinics back home. I’m single, with family far away, and I did not want to impose on my friends. Then I discovered that there was a Ketamine Infusion clinic in downtown Boulder (on Broadway between Pearl and Spruce), called Boulder Mind Care. The accessibility problem for me was now solved – getting from my house to the clinic is a 15 minute bus ride there and a 15 minute bus ride home. This was the final barrier I had to get over to try the therapy.
After that first conversation with Sarah Grindle, I sent them my history with their quick and easy online form. Dr. Grindle spoke with my therapist & reviewed my medical history, and I was able to quickly get in for my first appointment. The Grindles, as well as their nurse Stacie, are very compassionate, caring people, and I knew I was in good hands from the start.
After my initial consultation with Dr Grindle, I had my first ketamine infusion, and I had a dramatic improvement in my depression and anxiety. Later, at Dr Grindle’s recommendation, I tried “Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy” wherein I did therapy with my therapist while receiving ketamine at the same time. Ketamine by itself was incredible; ketamine and therapy simultaneously was miraculous. The ketamine enabled my therapist to walk with me through and process traumatic memories; in a way that was not painful or difficult. As a result, I had my most productive sessions ever!
My experience has been more than good, it has been unbelievable. While I have an exceptionally gifted therapist, since I started my ketamine infusions I’ve had more progress in dealing with PTSD in one year than I have in my entire life.
The ketamine therapy has not caused the depression symptoms to go into remission forever. Stress has always been one of the triggers for my depression. I still have stress in my life, but now, the ketamine therapy has given me resilience. My reaction to stress has changed; and that is everything. This is what I mean by resilience.
I am so grateful to Boulder Mind Care. The Grindles have been incredibly supportive, and have helped make this journey so much easier. I have no doubt they are supportive of everyone that they treat at that clinic. I can only feel grateful that they decided to open a clinic in Boulder that was readily accessible for me. Because of Boulder Mind Care, I have changed so much. I now have an effective tool for overcoming my depression and PTSD. I am so encouraged that I now have hope, and enthusiastic that I am finally moving on from “Good Enough” to “I Love My Life”!
This is my story, you will have to find your own.
Dr. Jeffrey S. Fox
(Identifying details redacted:)
August 12, 2019
Sarah and Dr. Grindle,
It’s so hard to find the words to express our gratitude for the amazing care that you have given our son. His depression and anxiety has been so hard on us as a family the last few years. We struggled watching him go into this dark place. He distanced himself from everyone and gave up activities that he loved.
As parents, you just want to find professional help for fear that something horrible might happen. Our son had a very kind psychiatrist and worked with us as a family to try and find solutions and hope. Antidepressants didn’t work and he just sank deeper into his own world.
When we read an article about Ketamine treatment, we were nervous and skeptical. Honestly, it was so far outside of the box for us, but we kept reading discussed it as a family and supported him in his decision to try Ketamine in hopes of helping him get his life back.
We knew we wanted an anesthesiologist to administer the treatments and fortunately for us, we discovered Boulder Mind Care. Honestly, your practice was not what we expected. It is much more intimate than we could have imagined. I feel like you know our son so well and you took the time to make us feel comfortable, knowing that we were traveling from out of state. Your total picture approach is amazing. He has learned things from his blood work that you requested, that we had no idea about…looking back, no one has ever looked at him as more than just a young man with depression. Thinking that an antidepressant can just “fix” someone without exploring other contributing factors like XXXX is mind blowing. Yet, you are the first practice we’ve ever been to that brought it up during his 1st visit.
We were so nervous. He is our 1st born and is the light of our lives. He has so much to offer the world, but for so long now, he’s been withdrawn and we longed for the kid we once knew.
After 6 treatments, we can see something changing. Little things like normal conversations that include laughter. He got his hair cut, which sounds silly, but the anxiety over going to the barber has diminished. He has a desire to cook again. He has started to take an interest in exercising again. He’s not afraid to get back out into the world. Simply put, he has hope.
We know that our son has a long journey ahead of him, but we know he’s in great hands with you. We could go on and on, but we wanted to make sure you know what a difference you’ve made in all our lives. We are so grateful.
I highly recommend this treatment and office! My experience was profound and relaxing. It gave me a more objective view on my traumatic experience and I now feel like I can live my life. The office and treatment room feel very welcoming and comfortable. I am usually a very anxious person but I felt good here. The staff really care about the patients they work with & you can tell these people they love what they do.
I can not encourage you enough to contact Boulder Mind Care if you suffer from PTSD. No matter your PTSD’s cause or date of origin. These kind, talented people CAN help you feel like yourself again.
I personally have lived with my PTSD for 26 years. Thanks to Boulder Mind Care I feel comfortable in my own skin for the first time in over 2.5 decades. I’m finally present for my family. I’m enjoying real quality time with them. Both at home and out on the town. It means everything to me to be with my family. Both physically & mentally. Especially when my ptsd often took me out of the room even if I was still there physically. In many cases I was just going through the motions. No longer.
If you suffer from PTSD and want to feel like yourself again? If you can’t remember what normal reactions to triggers felt like? If you’re paralyzed in any aspect of your life? Going out? Being social? Relationships, friendships or work environments? I’m writing this review today to tell you that you CAN feel normal again. No matter how impossible that seems based on years of nothing working for you. I’m living proof that being at home in your own skin is possible again. You owe it to yourself to contact Boulder Mind Care to schedule an appointment to see how they can help you live & love again.
My best wishes to you on your journey to finding yourself again. It’s a wonderful thing to do. You are so worth the phone call.
There aren’t enough superlatives in the dictionary to adequately express all the ways I would passionately and enthusiastically I recommend Boulder Mind Care. Dr. Wade, Sarah, and Stacie were the most capable, compassionate, and loving people we have had the pleasure of meeting.
My daughter and I traveled from Maryland to be treated at Boulder Mind Care. Dr. Wade came so highly recommended that I was confident that our long journey was worth it. I can’t emphasize enough how complex our cases were. If I tried to explain, I would lose you in about 30 seconds. It was very important for my own peace of mind that I didn’t get my hopes up in regard to the outcome of our respective treatments. That being said, I never dreamed of the amazing results we have experienced. To see the freedom of spirit in my daughter’s being for the first time since she was a young child, is miraculous. For me not to have the searing wide spread pain at a solid 7 everyday, is something dreams are made of.
My daughter doesn’t trust. However, the immense understanding,empathy, and caring that Dr. Wade treated her with allowed her to “let go and let Ketamine,” do the work! 🙂 Our every question was answered and any and all anxieties were put to rest. You truly receive the highest and most individualized treatment here. It was awe inspiring as I was able to not only be a part of the process, but also had the opportunity to watch it, as well.
This experience has changed our lives. My daughter now sees life as being full of possibilities. I couldn’t have said that before we arrived there. We even memorialized our trip by getting little dragonfly tattoos on our hands. So now every time we look down at our hands we are reminded of this beautiful and trans-formative experience.
Thank you Dr. Wade, Sarah, and Stacie for providing us with such phenomenal care. We miss you already, and we have only been home a couple days. I am sure this isn’t the end for us, as we shall see you again. Please know that we couldn’t have done any of this without you all, both figuratively and literally.
My care there has helped me greatly. I trust Dr G with everything and I know in total confidence that Ms Sarah cares. I feel as if I have a team of caregivers who assist me to living my very full active and productive life. That they are on my team to help me bloom in all my potentiality. Thank you Boulder Mind Care!
You can trust them.
Chronic Pain patient
First of, it was great to actually talk to someone who wanted to hear my problems right off the bat, not just fill a spot and become a number. These guys are stellar and go beyond what is asked, to staying late on Saturdays and answering the phone outside of business hours. Finding the nerve to actually get in was tough, but past that I felt welcomed and cared for. What I was experiencing was real and validated! These guys are not in the business of turning a profit, but wanting to help create a light in what felt like nothing but darkness.
Last year my husband fell into a bad episode of depression. As the months went on the depression progressively got worse and worse. EVERY aspect of his life was affected. He wasn’t even able to continue working because of being non-functional.
His psychiatrist was wonderful in listening to us and seeing first-hand how debilitating the depression was becoming. So he tried the entire gamut of antidepressants. Unfortunately, there was no relief. After hours of research, it seemed like TMS was an optional alternative treatment. But that also failed. Going back to hours of research, we found Ketamine was having good results with major depression. Not wanting to travel to Cherry Creek for all the treatments, we found the location of Boulder Mind Care to be so convenient and local. In addition, we preferred that this facility treated patients on a one-to-one basis, one patient per room. Other facilities have open common rooms treating multiple patients in the one room at the same time.
By this time, the 8 months of major depression was still worsening. So, we called and left a message asking Dr. Grindle to return our call to see if my husband was even a candidate for the treatment. To our surprise, Dr. Grindle HIMSELF returned our phone call the very next business day. My husband was in no mental state to have the conversation. Thankfully, Dr. Grindle did not give up. Only a few days later Dr. Grindle called again. Being the caregiver to my husband, I was besides myself that this doctor would go to this length of professionalism to offer help so I insisted my husband take the phone call. And looking back, I know my husband is was extremely impressed and now happy he had the conversation. Our first consultation was scheduled for the following week.
Since we had already had what we thought was the initial consultation, we actually had two initial consultations. So, we went prepared to just start the treatment. But no!! Dr. Grindle sat with us another 90 minutes doing a thorough consultation; contacted my husband’s psychiatrist; and, was then thoroughly prepared to recommend the treatment. This was the very first time in my life of being a long-term caregiver for so many family members in the past that the whole experience of the first day of treatment was astonishing and astounding. Dr. Grindle and Sarah treated us like they have known us our whole lives.
When my husband wasn’t responding to the treatment as all of us had hoped, Dr. Grindle reassessed the medical history and contacted the psychiatrist again recommending some other medications. Unfortunately, those medicines didn’t help either. And it didn’t appear as the Ketamine treatments were helping at all. Now weeks later, and nine months of severely debilitating depression and still no improvement, we did more research and it appeared as if my husband had been misdiagnosed. By this time, now 10 months of many different treatments, the psychiatrist told us he felt the last resort was ECT. That was like getting the same diagnosis a terminal cancer patient receives – “there’s nothing more we can do.”
I wrote an email to Dr. Grindle asking for his professional help yet again in presenting this misdiagnosed possibility to the psychiatrist. And this is how wonderful Dr. Grindle and his practice is. He personally wrote a letter to the psychiatrist asking on our behalf for another thorough re-evaluation, and to consider adding a new specific medication. We saw the psychiatrist the very next day and to our amazement, the psychiatrist agreed to trying a totally different medicine to treat the change in diagnosis.
Wa-La……… within 3 weeks my husband responded and is now back to full-time work functioning at an almost 100%.
The bottom line of this long testimonial: Although there wasn’t much response to the Ketamine treatments, Dr. Grindle and Sarah have been life-savers to our family. They became my greatest support system through this very difficult, long journey and are still there for me whenever I need a support boost. If any person or patient has anything negative to say about Boulder Mind Care they are sorely mistaken and should re-evaluate themselves that perhaps THEY are the negative cause of a bad experience with Dr. Grindle and Sarah.
(Anonymous by request)